This week I’ve been thinking about the vicious cycles I get into around food.
My circle is something like this:
I look to food for comfort.
I overeat and or make a dissatisfying food choice.
I hate myself and the food I ate.
I feel shame and guilt for eating food that didn’t satisfy my body or comfort me.
I punish myself either by eating more food to stuff the feelings or by tormenting myself in my mind.
In response to the punishment I create a plan, something that will make me perfect in relationship to food.
I feel superior because I’ve come up with a plan and want everyone else to do it with me. Until I feel a strong emotion again that feel uncomfortable and suddenly I feel the strong need for comfort again which leads back to eating to stuff my emotions.
Whew. That is vicious. Really, really ugly. It feels ugly writing it. But also very freeing. I can see it. I can see my cycle. I can follow it all the way around. It helps to know what I do. What my pattern is. How I relate to food. As a side note, whenever I talk about how we relate to food in my mind I insert myself for food. Our relationship with food is our relationship with ourselves. So the great news is, that any and all healing we do with food will deeply impact our entire life. Whew! THAT IS good news!
So now that I see my cycle my task is to look for ways out. What are my off ramps? What are the tools for when I’m blind to anything but the vicious feelings of this dark dark place?
Brainstorm with me here…lets come up with a toolkit for my emotional eating cycle. I want to be free!!!!
Ok, I’m feeling really good about this list. It’s feeling hopeful and a little bit exciting. The feeling of empowerment is building.
It feels like a real tool box of tools I know will shift things from the negative current into the positive current.
Will you take this journey with me? What are your tools? What is your vicious circle?
So much love to us all on this journey of coming to love and accept ourselves!
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