I had this experience recently where I gave myself the smallest amount of self care, read: the amount I could do at home for free with the kids, and it transformed how I felt so quickly it took my breath away.
I took a bath. I soaked in fragrance and salt. I knew I needed something. I was feeling desperate. I was feeling like a parched cavernous human walking around ready to soak up any amount of nurturing I could find. It was a yucky desperate feeling. When I get this way I'm kinda crazy. While I'm out driving I search along the roadside for anyplace I could stop and grab some food, a quick fix to quench my soul's thirst.
My husband has been out of the country for 6 weeks so I've had ample opportunity to explore the ins and outs of this feeling. AGAIN.
Thankfully I've come to know this place in myself better. I don't take it so personally and I don't get totally consumed by it. AND I don't make it worse by indulging in the binge. It's not that it would be wrong for me to stop and eat some junk food. It's just that when I feel this desperate binging would spiral me downward. And that's just not kind to myself. I've done it that way enough times to know.
I'm amazed that such a small offering could impact me so much. And it was slow creeping. I didn't notice so much how good it felt until the next day.
And then BOOM, I'm happily cleaning even parts of my house that I regularly ignore! This is not the desperate parched soul. This is the loved and nurtured soul. And I did it myself!
I am left in awe. This nurturing stuff works. It works big time! It's not a magic pill but it's pretty close.
I think of food inspiration as a nurturing my parched soul. An opportunity for re-connection with and love for self. Don't we all long for this level of soul soaking love even in our food life?
While my husband has been away I've noticed that when I go shopping I'm so focused on getting the 'must haves' on my list, or on staying on budget, or on keeping my kids from destroying the store, that I haven't fully tuned in to the major change of season happening right now.
This is the time of year that food changes completely! We move away from summer meals of cucumbers tomatoes and basil into roasted squash, stews and soups.
When I'm not tuned in I feel lost. I feel uninspired and I find myself fighting the change. Unable to figure out what to make for dinner I'm swimming in in-between land still wanting summer foods but unable to find them.
Until yesterday. I went to my local Asian market/import store and they had the most gorgeous purple sweet potatoes I've ever seen!
I literally shouted for joy! And the best part is they aren't imported from Hawaii they are from Atlanta which is right around the corner from here so they are suuuuper fresh and will be all the more delicious and hopefully they'll have a good back-stock so I can get more! By the way if you haven't tried Hawaiian sweet potatoes they are deeply purple inside. When they are baked they stay deep rich purple and the flesh is soft and fragrant. These smell of red bush tea and chestnuts! The perfect companion to any meal.
I felt so inspired.
I wanted to cook them ASAP.
I realized that I could make them with that roasted chicken I'd planned for my husband's welcome home dinner. Aaaaah, that feels better. I'd been struggling to figure out what to make for this special occasion. I can feel it, the inspiration. Once it starts it's contagious. And it just makes life so much easier.
It awakens that part of me that wants to feel alive with excitement. It nurtures that part of me that wants to cook a meal not as a chore but as a connection with all that is.
Not quite a magic pill, but close!
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